Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

The acreage

Waiting until Thursday to hear back from the realtor about the offer is killing me. I want this house so bad. It's like my dream house. And it's not that it's fancy or bigger, although of course it has land and no neighbors ;) But it's that I feel that I can be who I am and live the life I want in that house. It needs some repairs but as long as it's structurally sound then everything else is cosmetic.

But I struggle with the crossroad before us. I am so enthralled with this house that I'm to the "beg, borrow, and steal" point of wanting it. But what if, I put everything on the line for this house, and we get it, and I'm still not happy?

And then I think, (many times in fact), that I'm going to be 30 soon, and I'm not happy. And what if I spend the rest of my life chasing happiness?